Anyways, I think I have come down with a cold. Sad day. I bet it is because I went out on Saturday night and should not have. It was fun but after going out and partying it enforced the idea of why I hate partying. Maybe it is just a phase that will pass over, but I am bored of getting drunk. I can just wait till I am 21 to go out and party. For now I am content. Anyways I was thinking about French class and how I have always wanted to go to France since I was in middle school and soon I will be able to go... if I turn in all my paper work and get my act together. I must stop procrastinating. My French is not as great as I would want it to be, I mean come on, I have been taking French for three years already and I honestly can say that I am a horrible speaker. I can write and everything rather well but when it comes to actually speaking the language I am screwed. I wonder how I will survive in France. ha.
Okay, so back to the thought of how I have always dreamed of going to Paris. I had a couple of opportunities to go to France in High School but each time I could not go... I know this sounds really stupid, but it was because of Cross-Country and Track. I told my coach of how I wanted to travel for two weeks to France with my French teacher my Junior and Senior Year but both times he tried to talk me out of it and he won. I ended up not going both times and I regret it till this day. Cross-Country and Track really meant a lot to me at the time but I should have just gone on the trip because now I really regret it. That is why I am so determined to study abroad in Paris my Junior year.
There is just something about France that lures me in. I was always fascinated with the people, the architecture, the food, the lifestyle, the art, the fashion and the city, itself. I always felt I did not belong back at home in Oahu because I was never an island girl and because Paris is so different from Oahu I was even more set on making France a destination to travel to. I want to one day live in Paris when I get really old after I live in New York! New York is also another place that has fascinated me since I was young. I always wondered how could one place be so diverse and busy all the time. It is the city that never sleeps. I love how New York is always high paced, very different from Oahu. After dreaming of going to New York, I finally got to go for my graduation present with my mom and aunty. It was amazing. Right when I got there, I knew I would love it.... and I did. I know one day I will be back there to live. My plans for now are to finish college on time, find a job that will sustain me for a bit, work up my portfolio for fashion school, earn money for my loans and fashion school and then submit my portfolio and see what happens from there. I am hoping to go to New York for fashion school, rather than California because though California is a cool place to visit I just don't see myself living here. I want a different kind of life and I don't see my future here, at all. I never did and never will.
It's been a while since I have drawn for my portfolio and thinking of designs, I haven't had much time to do that here because it requires so much other research to even start on a project. I wish I had more time to do everything so I can lay down and read like I did during the summer, bake and make simple dishes, call all my mom/sister more often and of course my besties, draw from morning to night, which will result in a cramped hand, go out and explore the city more often, just lie down in the park and day dream, etc. There is just so much I want to do but so little time. Oh mon dieu.
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