Done.

First semester of sophomore year of college is over.

Thank God. 

I finished three finals today, two in class exams and one paper. So glad. :) 

Now, I am at my roommates house and then heading off to the airport to go home tomorrow morning. 

I am so excited but at the same time so tired from lack of sleep and constant studying. 

This semester has proved to be tougher than last semester and the semester before that. I put in a lot more effort and felt like I worked my ass off. I hope it pays off and I see the results in my final grades. I am really hoping for A's in at least three of my classes. If not, then I will admit I will be disappointed. Oh wells, I'll just work harder next semester and get better grades. 

It's a lie that college is easier than High School. I put in a lot more effort here in college but I end up with B's and the occasional A's. But in High School it was so much easier. I would always do my work and did put in a lot of effort, but it wasn't hard. I always ended up with A's and the occasional B in math. Oh wells, no time to worry now. I just need to hope for the best. 

Anyways, today I went to the library to finish up my paper, study, and grab a Murakami book for my flight home... and I saw this really cute guy who works at the circulation desk. I know, I am so lame, but he was really cute. Teehee. He helped me to check my book out and I asked him some stupid question, to which I already knew the answer to, just so I could talk to him a little longer. What is wrong with me? ha, I guess it is because I have no romantic life whatsoever. I hardly get any contact with boys because my school's ratio of boys to girls is like one boy for every hundred girls. ha. Plus the Art History Department is all girls, there are no boys at all!!! 

He looks a bit older, not sure if he is a student, maybe a senior or a graduate student? I go to the library quite often and I hardly see him so it was nice to see someone cute. Right after I saw him the song Coast of Carolina by Telekinesis, reminds me of him for some reason. Not sure why, but it just popped into my head. Okay, I should stop talking about this because now I sound like I have some crazy middle school crush. 

Yesterday was a battle...

Via National Geohraphic.

But today, I won. 

Chameleon.

Everyday is a different day. Every morning we rise and wake up to a new day. It is never the same as the previous day. That is why we should live each day to the fullest, because we do not know what to expect the next day. Experience and live in the moment, everyday, every hour, every minute, every second. Because at any point of your day destruction may strike. 

Animals by Miike Snow. 

(Don't really like the song, just the lyrics. I think that the beat, pace, and rhythm are too fast for the lyrics and the meaning behind them.)

There was a time when my world was filled with darkness, darkness, darkness
and I stopped dreaming now I'm supposed to fill it up with something, something , something
in your eyes i see the eyes of somebody i knew before long long long ago
but I'm still trying to make my mind up
am I free or am I tied up

I change shapes just to hide in this place but i'm still, i'm still an animal
nobody knows it but me when i slip yeah i slip 
im still an animal

there is a hole and i tried to fill up with money, money , money
but it gets bigger to your hopes is always

running,running,running

in your eyes i see the eyes of somebody of who could be (slow?)
tell me if i'm wrong
and now i'm pulling your disguise up
or you free or are you tied up

i change shapes just to hide in this place but i'm still i'm still an animal
nobody knows it but me when i slip 
I'm still an animal

i change shapes just to hide in this place but im still im still an animal
nobody knows it but me when i slip yeah i slip
I'm still an animal

:instrumental break:

i change shapes just to hide in this place but im still im still an animal
nobody knows it but me when i slip yeah i slip
I'm still an animal x2 

harhar

This is so ridiculously funny...  I am asian AND from Hawaii, so I add to the list of things/people that make Palin uncomfortable. This just made my day. How incredibly stupid and childish can someone be? 

WATCH THIS VIDEO... another reason to continue to keep my facebook unactivated.

Wishlist

So... here is my wishlist:

1. PS1 leather bag in either black, brown or chartreuse.

2. Proenza Schouler leather wallet in brown or chartreuse. 

3. Oxfords, heels, flats, and boots from MaraisUSA.

4. JCrew wool pants. 

5. A watch... I have many in mind, but not sure which type of watch I would like to invest in.

This is all I could come up with for now... I am sure that there is a lot more... :)

The power of pictures

Okay, so, as soon as I saw this picture, I thought it looked like a vagina. ahahaha. Seriously, look and think about it. The shape in the middle formed by the two mini "cliffs" or whatever, you call it, has a similar shape to a vagina. Then when you look on the outer part of it, all the greenery and plants reminds me of pubic hair. It is sort of wild, unruly, animalistic, and naturalistic. Then inside of the shape, is the beautiful, calming blue colored water, which to me is sort of like, "Here, look! Look at the beauty that the vagina has to offer inside." This may all sound crazy, but, really, this is the first thought that came into my head when I saw this picture. I can't help it, I like to analyze pictures, after all I am an Art History major. This picture, just has this sexual meaning and power to me as soon as I saw it. I wouldn't mind painting something like this, but in a different style or with variations. Maybe I should. Hmmmm. 

This and That...

First, the state decides to have a furlough on Fridays for public schools in Hawaii and now, they have decided to have a furlough for libraries, too!? Seriously, what the hell is the government thinking? I understand that they do not have a sufficient amount of money, but, why cut back on school and library days? Aren't the purposes for both of these institutions to educate the people within the community of Hawaii? Why is it that, whenever a cut back has to be made, the arts or anything education related, must be cut back first? I may sound like I am am over reacting, but, I believe that this is a good enough reason to over react. There is so much I want to say about this topic, but I cannot seem to gather all my thoughts in an orderly fashion, so I will just leave it at this and maybe continue next time... 

Anyways, aside from reading that article... I got to thinking about relationships with friends, family members, etc. 

When it comes to any of these sorts of relationships, I have high expectations. It's just how I have been all my life because I found friendships and relationships between family members to be of importance. I was always the type of girl who had a small group of friends, I never had a large group of friends growing up, probably because I was so shy. However, as I grew older, I started to come out of my shell and socialize with many different people, outside of my group of friends. Though I would never consider these people to be my close friends, I would definitely consider them as my friends. And, even in this process, I am quite picky as to whom, I consider my friends, close friends, or acquaintances. Those whom I consider my close or best friends are people who I know I can trust. For my, trust is a very important issue, and usually it takes me a lot longer to trust anyone. I don't know why, but, I have major trust issues. Maybe it could be because I have been screwed over, so many times, and let down over and over again, in my past. Anyways, because of this, I have learned to shut myself off to others pretty well. Yeah, on the outside, it seems like I am very amiable and open, but, truthfully it can be a coverup... sometimes. I am a pretty friendly person and can talk to most people with no problems, but sometimes I act like I am open, when in fact, I use it as a defense mechanism. It all sounds so odd and confusing, but it works for me. Also, deep down inside, I keep track of those, whom I can trust, and others that I cannot trust. That, is why my expectations from my friends, etc are so high, because I feel that because I can trust them, that they will not screw me over or hurt me, in any sort of way. Also, my expectations are probably high because I am willing to do so much for those whom I care about, and I guess in return, I feel that they would do the same for me. But I guess that is not how it works out in many cases. That is why I came to a possible conclusion, maybe I should lower my expectations? I know it sounds bad, but if I were to lower my expectations, then I would not get hurt as often and would probably stress less. Yes, I am an emotional person, as you can tell by reading my entires. I have always been quite an emotional person, but that I also hid as much as possible. Maybe, that is why many people tell me I come off as a "bitch" when they first see me. It's because I try to hide any sort of emotion that I have by putting on this "bitch mask." Hahaha, that sounds funny, "bitch mask." (To clarify, anything, if I happen to sound like I think I am superior, by saying stuff like "they have to earn my trust...blah, blah, blah", sorry, I don't mean to come off as one! I promise, this is just an entry about me venting and ranting.) Okay, off I go! Au revoir! 

Let it out.

"Develop your eccentricities early, and no one will think you’re going senile later in life."

— David Ogilvy